Designing the Life You Want
The only way out (of anything) is in. Go in. Dive in. And sometimes its vewy, vewy scawey in there…but nonetheless.
1. The parts we know as ourselves are at the ego level.
2. My personal self is the “mind-made” self.
3. My identity is the story I have had in my mind.
4. And I hate admitting it, (Hello Ego, now STFU!) but I have been living my entire life in my mind.
I’ve been through so many changes in the last six months. I feel this : Intensity, I feel that so profoundly. Lately I’ve been feeling everything. Like, every damn thing. It’s so annoying… 🙂
Always in motion, always traveling, always working, always playing catch up. Never enough time. My clients, and people I work with, Business owners, entrepreneurs, leaders, those who live on the edge feel this.
Overwhelmed with the Tyranny of the Immediate.
Like most entrepreneurs, I am not always present. My attention is always moving forward into the next moment. So I am literally 5 minutes ahead of myself. Or 2 minutes. Or 30 seconds.
I realized that I have spent my entire life catching up with mySelf. The one tracking just seconds ahead of me…
If you read this, take a breath and see where your mind takes you. Doesn’t it always track a few seconds or minutes into the next moment?
I forgot the little things that make me happy…being in love, being in relationship, connection, intimacy, friendships. Great conversations for no reason.
No goals, deliverables, outcomes, initiatives, plans, objectives, targets, missions, output, product, gain, yield, product production, product. All mind.
Underneath this raving workaholic is a person who just wants to smell grass, breathe in ocean air, pet a dog, enjoy an almond butter and banana sandwich, do things for no reason other than they make me happy. Is that too much to ask?
I want to pull back that 5 minutes to 2 minutes, to 5 seconds to now.
So I can be here to re-member who I am. And stop apologizing for who I am not.
Is it me or does anyone else know what I’m talking about?